That feeling when you need to set aside your wants just to keep them satisfied. There are times that I just wished I can pay all my tuition fees. And everything that I need. Ang hirap kasi ng hindi mo gusto yung pinag aaralan mo. Yung napipilitan ka lang kasi gusto nilang matapos ka kagad. Yes, I know na sayang. Sayang yung panahon na ginugol ko. Yung hirap, pagod, puyat, luha. And most of all yung pera ng parents and ate ko. Pero diba mas mahirap kung itutuloy ko yung isang napakahalagang bagay na hindi ko naman talaga gusto? Almost everyday naiisip ko, panu kung iba yung nakuha ko? Ganto pa rin kaya ako? O mas masaya at nag eenjoy ko? Ang hirap promise. I don't want to disappoint may loved ones and at the same time, myself. I know that everything happens for a reason kaya sana umayos na. Ang laki pa naman ng expectations sakin. Sobang nakaka pressure.

Life: April 2, 2014

Life: April 2, 2014: In the morning, my mom asked me if I am free to go with her to Calumpit. Because we will order the Fatima (religious item) that our Auntie i...

April 2, 2014

In the morning, my mom asked me if I am free to go with her to Calumpit. Because we will order the Fatima (religious item) that our Auntie in California asked us to buy. *fastforward* I saw how the statues were made. They do it hand crafted (mano mano). The people were amazing. Some painted the statue. Some furnish the statue just to make sure that it was perfectly done.

Photos while doing the statue

After we went to Calumpit, we went to Robinsons place Malolos to buy some stuffs. And after that we went straight to Malolos Bayan and went home. After that I went to BSU to meet Bianca and some NEW friends. They were so cool. Our first plan is to eat at Alejandra's but unfortunately it's not open. So we went to Twin's Plaza and then we decided to eat at the American style restaurant. But we change our mind when we saw the menu. HAHA. We hurriedly went to Razon's. 

At Razon's we had some girl talk. Ate Jackie Gan is the leader. She was the one who share some stories, jokes, share some experiences and more. We are just the listeners. :D Ooops! we share some stories and opinions too. She shared some miracles that happened to her life. Like, how she became a SG President (student government), how she got some of her material things, some of her memories with her father. Everything about her stories was simply amazing! The kind of stories that you want to hear every now and then without getting bored. We all laugh and laugh until we didn't notice the time that's running.

I've learned so much from them. Especially when God is the topic. 

• I've learned that there is no harm in asking you want as long as He is with you. 
• Nothing is impossible with Him. 
• We all need spiritual friends.
• If you want to be happy, BE CONTENTED.

And the most lesson I've learned is, to tell someone you how much you love them before it's too late. In my case she says that I'm really fortunate because I still have a father working abroad even though we're not that close. I am more fortunate than those who don't have. I need to appreciate those people more. 

Group Pictures (credits to Veanca) 

I am really grateful that I got to meet these awesome people, Veanca, Ate Jackie, Bianca. Looking forward for more gala and foodtrips with them. I am really tired today. I felt like I'm Dora the Explorer. Haha! But what important is I enjoy this day and learned at the same time I learned something. :) <3

032514- 12:06am. Kanina pa ko pascroll scroll dito, facebook, youtube, google wala naman akong napapala. Wala lang may magawa lang. Pero dapat nagrereview talaga kong sobra dahil nga finals na pero wala eh sobrang wala ako sa mood. To think na sa wednesday to Saturday na yung exams. Siguro ganun talaga, kapag wala kang motivation at hindi mo gusto yung ginagawa mo wala kang matatapos. Although gusto ko naman talaga 'to matapos pero bakit ganto? Nakaka ewan. HAHAHAHAHA. Reklamo ko ng reklamo na andaming kailangang gawin pero ako naman tong hayyy...

Pero sabi nga nung kaibigan ko, "Alam kong kayang kaya mo yan, Ikaw pa!" Haha! Nakakapressure pong tunay. Basta I know naman na ginagawa ko yung best ko. Makiayon naman sana ang tadhana sakin. :D

Ate Yesha Sali

I have this friend/sister on Tumblr that I really idolize in terms of blogging and also in designing her blog. Her name is Yesha Sali, 21 years of age. She's from Zamboanga if I'm not mistaken. She chose nurse as her profession. I think she's the prettiest nurse that I have seen in my entire life. She's kind and approachable. I love how she communicate with her followers and friends. 

When I saw her online on Tumblr, at first I have hesitations if I would talk to her. Because I know that she is totally busy and I don't want to bother her. But I tried even if I'm shy.

 I told her that she's good in making her blog nice and neat. And I also asked her where did she learned all of it, because really want to be like her. But today, I just saw her response. She said that google is a big part of learning and also tutorials. "It's just a trial and error", she said. She also told me that she'll be going to teach how to do those designs if she have time. And that really made me happy. A big thanks to Ate Yesha Sali. I'm really looking forward to it. :)

Credits to Ate Yesha's header

(c) Ate Yesha's blog

You're really lovely. I want to meet you in person. God Bless to this pretty lady. And may you continue to inspire us using your blog posts. More power to you and your boyfriend. ^__^

Am I not good enough?

Why do I always feel like that I'm unwanted? Why do I always feel like that I'm alone? Why do I always feel like that I'm not good enough? Why do I always feel like that I'm just an option? Why do I always got rejected? Why am I feeling all of these when all I want is to be loved and be happy? WHY?

Am I not good enough? I always have this fear. The fear of not being good enough. I did my best to be good. I did my best not to disappoint all the people that counting on me but it's always not enough. I don't know where to stand. All I know is that, I'm just a just a disappointment to everybody. And the saddest thing is I always disappoint... MYSELF.

Maybe, I am not really good enough. Maybe I should strive more. Maybe my best is not really my best. It hurts. I am hurt. Why am I feeling these all of a sudden? I want someone to understand me. Someone I can talk to. Someone who will listen and never gets tired to all my rants. Someone who would tell me that, "No, you're not a failure Lovely. It's okay. Nobody is perfect. I'm always here for you, no matter what happens. I'll never leave you."

But nah! I need to accept the truth that the people I trust with all my heart, will leave me eventually. Just like others did. People come and go. So for now, I need to be strong... for myself. I don't want to cry anymore. I'm really tired. Tired of being alone. All I want is to be happy. Is that that hard?

Welcome Back Kuya Bry! :)

030814. My brother is currently working at my cousin's spa. Located in Balibago, Pampanga. He's been working there for almost two months. Every Wednesday is his day off, so he's travelling from Pampanga to Bulacan at night and got home 11pm or worst midnight. We all know that it is very hard for him to be on that situation because he's not used to it.

Hi Kuya! This blogpost is for you. Today, we noticed that you are now mature. We, your family were really proud of you. You're really grown up now. May you continue your good attitude at all. Nothing feels better than witnessing you doing and enjoying your job. I know that you're doing this because you want our mom, especially our dad to be proud of you. You just proved that it is not too late to change. And you changed for the BETTER. God bless you Kuya. We are always here for you no matter what. Eventhough we didn't usually say "I LOVE YOU" to you but I swear we mean it. We miss you a lot. Take care always.

With Kuya Bry :) ♥♡☆