032514- 12:06am. Kanina pa ko pascroll scroll dito, facebook, youtube, google wala naman akong napapala. Wala lang may magawa lang. Pero dapat nagrereview talaga kong sobra dahil nga finals na pero wala eh sobrang wala ako sa mood. To think na sa wednesday to Saturday na yung exams. Siguro ganun talaga, kapag wala kang motivation at hindi mo gusto yung ginagawa mo wala kang matatapos. Although gusto ko naman talaga 'to matapos pero bakit ganto? Nakaka ewan. HAHAHAHAHA. Reklamo ko ng reklamo na andaming kailangang gawin pero ako naman tong hayyy...

Pero sabi nga nung kaibigan ko, "Alam kong kayang kaya mo yan, Ikaw pa!" Haha! Nakakapressure pong tunay. Basta I know naman na ginagawa ko yung best ko. Makiayon naman sana ang tadhana sakin. :D

Ate Yesha Sali

I have this friend/sister on Tumblr that I really idolize in terms of blogging and also in designing her blog. Her name is Yesha Sali, 21 years of age. She's from Zamboanga if I'm not mistaken. She chose nurse as her profession. I think she's the prettiest nurse that I have seen in my entire life. She's kind and approachable. I love how she communicate with her followers and friends. 

When I saw her online on Tumblr, at first I have hesitations if I would talk to her. Because I know that she is totally busy and I don't want to bother her. But I tried even if I'm shy.

 I told her that she's good in making her blog nice and neat. And I also asked her where did she learned all of it, because really want to be like her. But today, I just saw her response. She said that google is a big part of learning and also tutorials. "It's just a trial and error", she said. She also told me that she'll be going to teach how to do those designs if she have time. And that really made me happy. A big thanks to Ate Yesha Sali. I'm really looking forward to it. :)

Credits to Ate Yesha's header

(c) Ate Yesha's blog

You're really lovely. I want to meet you in person. God Bless to this pretty lady. And may you continue to inspire us using your blog posts. More power to you and your boyfriend. ^__^

Am I not good enough?

Why do I always feel like that I'm unwanted? Why do I always feel like that I'm alone? Why do I always feel like that I'm not good enough? Why do I always feel like that I'm just an option? Why do I always got rejected? Why am I feeling all of these when all I want is to be loved and be happy? WHY?

Am I not good enough? I always have this fear. The fear of not being good enough. I did my best to be good. I did my best not to disappoint all the people that counting on me but it's always not enough. I don't know where to stand. All I know is that, I'm just a just a disappointment to everybody. And the saddest thing is I always disappoint... MYSELF.

Maybe, I am not really good enough. Maybe I should strive more. Maybe my best is not really my best. It hurts. I am hurt. Why am I feeling these all of a sudden? I want someone to understand me. Someone I can talk to. Someone who will listen and never gets tired to all my rants. Someone who would tell me that, "No, you're not a failure Lovely. It's okay. Nobody is perfect. I'm always here for you, no matter what happens. I'll never leave you."

But nah! I need to accept the truth that the people I trust with all my heart, will leave me eventually. Just like others did. People come and go. So for now, I need to be strong... for myself. I don't want to cry anymore. I'm really tired. Tired of being alone. All I want is to be happy. Is that that hard?

Welcome Back Kuya Bry! :)

030814. My brother is currently working at my cousin's spa. Located in Balibago, Pampanga. He's been working there for almost two months. Every Wednesday is his day off, so he's travelling from Pampanga to Bulacan at night and got home 11pm or worst midnight. We all know that it is very hard for him to be on that situation because he's not used to it.

Hi Kuya! This blogpost is for you. Today, we noticed that you are now mature. We, your family were really proud of you. You're really grown up now. May you continue your good attitude at all. Nothing feels better than witnessing you doing and enjoying your job. I know that you're doing this because you want our mom, especially our dad to be proud of you. You just proved that it is not too late to change. And you changed for the BETTER. God bless you Kuya. We are always here for you no matter what. Eventhough we didn't usually say "I LOVE YOU" to you but I swear we mean it. We miss you a lot. Take care always.

With Kuya Bry :) ♥♡☆

Forex.com

February 11, 2014

Forex logo (edited by Lovely :D)

This morning, February 11, 2014 I just don't know what came into my mind and I got to go online to check our account in Forex. "Our" because it is a group project and my email is the one that we decided to pass to our professor as an official account. The account that she will be graded on. To be clear to you (whoever reading this) I need to define what my topic I am talking about here in my blog post which is Forex. But what is Forex to be exact? The foreign exchange market (Forex, FX, or currency market) is a global, decentralized market for the trading of currencies. The main participants in this market are the largest international banks. Financial centers around the world function as anchors of trading between a wide range of different types of buyers and sellers around the clock, with the exception of weekends. (Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/) 

Forex.com Homepage

Now that we all know what is Forex (foreign exchange) is. It sounds interesting right? Because it talks about money. And it made me interested too. When my professor orients it and she said that it is a game. It fascinates me more. It is our project in our Finance subject. Our goal is to make our $ 50, 000 initial balance bigger. If our tradable balance became $ 49,999 below our final grade project would be 5.0 or 3.0 (as for effort in the documentation). Here is the basis of the grading system if we got the total tradable balance of: $ 62,500 =2.75; $ 75,500 = 2.5; $ 87,500 = 2.25; $ 100,000 = 2.0; $ 150,000 = 1.75; $ 200,000 = 1.5; $205,000 = 1.0

with my friends and groupmates

In the beginning, my classmates and I are really confused just to create an account. It's really confusing though, because it is the first time that we encounter that kind of game(?) But with the helped of each one of us, we definitely created it. Some of us created a sample account just to be familiar and know how it works. January 23, 2014 is the first day of our real forex account and it will end on February 20, 2014. It is a big challenge for us. Especially the one's with an internet connection at home, because we are the one who are really responsible for the account. It is a group project and we need to have a good cooperation as a grup. For me, I want this project to be individual. I'm not saying that I'm that good with this kind of task, but because I don't want my group mates to suffer if I got a low tradable balance since I'm the one who is checking it time to time. 

This project seems easy at the first time I played it because on the first week I gained a tradable balance of $86,000+. And I even taught some of my classmates on how to play it correctly. They messaged me on my Facebook account even if it's late and I answer it right away. It is a big sacrifice for me because even if I'm not in the mood to go online and I  really wanted to sleep is I need to do so just help them. They're my classmates and friends too, so I want to voluntarily share my knowledge with them. I just wish they appreciated all of it. lol

Forex made me realized so many things. It tested my patience, trust with my group mates which are my friends, setting aside some of my not so important habits. I think this is the most affected area--- by hobby in blogging and updating some of my accounts on other social networking sites. I surrender most of my time just to check and play forex. But I know that this is worth it. These past few days I'm really inactive to Tumblr and I really miss blogging. And even Tweeting (haha.) I just wish it's already February 21 so I can go back to my original scenario everyday. 

After a week of not checking our account and lay lowing due to some instance with my group mates, later this morning a thought came into my mind, "Nakakamiss din pala magforex. Nakakamiss yung nakatitig ka sa "positions" at iniintay tumaas yung value nung goods." So yeah. I'm back to Forex world. Welcome back to Forex World Lovely.

Currency Pairs

You can recover all your loss. "Tiwala lang." sabi nga nila. It is not yet the end. We don't have so much time left so we need to have extra effort. So, sa mga classmates ko na sure akong nakakarelate dito, kaya natin yan. Matatapos din yung stress natin. Malapit na. We can do all of it. At sa mga groupmates ko, sana naman nainitindihan niyo ko dun sorry by the way. I hope na natuto tayong lahat.

Sincerely,
Lovely

I'm Thankful for the People who Never Left

Words are not enough to thank those people who never left by your side. In good times especially the bad times.
For me, they are my strength. They are gifts that God sent to me that will help me to overcome such things that mold me become a better and strong person. In fact, they seem to be my guardian angel. My key to every close doors because they hone me as who I am today and I know that someday a door will open for a greater opportunity. I really can't wait for thing to happen. But I do believe that all hard to get are all worth waiting for.
For those people who leave someone in just a blink of an eye, I just wanted to say that you are not worth it. Some people are really  worth letting go especially when they are ones who caused your sadness. We all know that it's painful to let go of someone who's been a really big part of your life but you have to do it. If they want to go let them be. Just think that if they really want to be part of your life they will stay no matter hard it is to be with you. They will wait for you no matter what. They will stay the same no matter how many times you try to push them away. They will, they will. If they really love you and mean what they said to you.
Hence, if you experience to be left by someone close to your heart just remember this simple but very remarkable thought, "Some people are going to leave, but but's not the end of your story. That's the end of their part in your story. A new door cannot be opened until you have the courage to close the one behind." - Spiritual Inspiration. (I found that quote to a social networking site
that I'm addicted to. And I find that quote a meaningful one so I saved it on my phone so that I can read it anytime I want.) The quoation says it all. If they go, let them. If someone wants to be part of your life again. You'll never know what his/her intention but let them do so. Let them to stay. Don't push him/her again. What if he's going to be a big impact to your life? At least you try.
And to those people who's still here with me, thank you. Please stay. No matter ow hard it is to be with me sometimes. No matter how moody and "topakin" I am. Stay. I really believe that true friends never leave. They will definitely wait for you. So, I love you my friends. And my family too. I am really grateful that at least for now I've know who really my faithful friends and to those who are "walang pakialam" I let you go this time. We all don't really need each other.
To you whoever reading this, thank you for spending your time. Hope you've learned somethimg. And sorry for some dramatic expressions. It's just that I wanted to express my real feelings though writing. Have a great day and smile. :)

Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014!

This year (2013) had been memorable to me. So many joys, melancholy and something worth keeping that happened. Sa taong ito sobrang dami kong naexperience. Naranasan kong sumaya, masaktan at umiyak. Pero siyempre naniniwala ako na everything happens for a reason. And I’m still hoping na sana di na maulit yon. Natuto na ko kaya itetreasure ko na yung mga taong nagmamahal talaga saken.

Pero kung merong lungkot siyempre meron ding saya. Andyan yung pamilya ko na napaka supportive at mahal na mahal ako. This year binded us as one. Lahat kami MAS lalong naging malapit sa isa’t isa. Sa dami ba naman naming gala sa malalayong luagar eh. Haha. Pero totoo pala talaga yung saying na “Sino sino pa nga bang magtutulungan kundi tayo tayo (pamilya) lang din". May mga trials, failures na nangyare pero nalampasan namin yun ng sama sama. Naging healthy din naman kami physically and spiritually. Mas lalo pa kaming naging malapit kay Lord dahil na rin siguro sa pagsama sama namin sa church ng ate ko.

In terms naman sa mga kaibigan ko infairness MAS dumami pa sila. Or should I say sobrang dami na nila? I don’t know lang kung they are true to me or not. But for me, what is important is that, I treated them well whole heartedly and I’ve done my part it’s up to them nalang kung ganun din sila saken. Thankful naman ako kasi sobrang bait nila sakin. Sana lang talaga di sila mang iwan sa ere kundi kukutusan ko sila isa isa. Haha. Just kidddin’.
Yung studies ko this year? So far so good. May ilang di magandang grades pero bumawi naman ako. Alam ko naman kasi sa sarili ko na ginawa ko yung best ko para dun. Sobrang hirap lang talaga ng course ko kaya ganun. Pero this upcoming year (2014) mas, mas, mas, lalo ko pang gagalingan. Newman kase gusto ko maging proud din sila shaken. Grown up na ata ‘to. Naks! Haha. Mag e18 na ko pero may chaperone pa din minsan. I know naman na that is for my own good sake kaya naiintindihan ko. 
May mga lessons din ako na natutunan. Here are some:

- Appreciate the little things. Kahit gano pa man yan kaliit basta matuto kang pahalagahan yun. Kasi you’ll never know kung hanggang kailan to magtatagal o mawawala sayo. At huwag mong hayaan na mawala to sayo dahil sigurado magsisisi ka sa bandang huli dahil nakuha na ‘to ng iba.

- Make time for family. Kung dati di mo sila pinapansin aba! mag isisp isip ka, dahil hindi habang panahon andiysn sila sa tabi mo. Tsaka masaya kaya kapag sama sama kayong pamilya. Lalo na kapag kumpleto. The more the merrier.

- Make new friends. Learn to socialize. Kasi hindi naman tao ang lalapit sa’yo. Gumawa ka ng way para maka cloase mo sila. Panigurado di ka magsisisi. Kasi kapag nangailangan ka sila din yung matatakbuhan mo. Sabi nga, “What friends are for.” Nahihiya lang yang mga yan kaya dapat ikaw na ang mag first move.

- Be Thrifty. Eto ako pinaka sira. Napaka gala ko kasi kaya astos talaga kung gastos. Mahilig kami kumaen at ako sa mga accessories. Pero kailangan na talaga matuto magtipid. Kung di pa naman talaga kailangang bilin, wag muna bilin kalat lang yan sa bahay. Haha.

Basta palagi lang nating tandaan na mahalaga ang bawat oras (Time is gold nga diba?:D) Kidding aside. I just want to share some of my favorite quotations about life:
1. Life is like a riding a roller coaster so many ups and downs. 
2. Life is ride riding a bicycle you have to keep moving. 
3. Life is about taking chances. You’ll get there someday.

Andami ko pang gustong ishare pero tinatamad na ko magtype. Ipad kasi gamit ko at hindi PC kaya medyo nakakangawit. (medyopalusot). Ayun, salamat sa time kung sino ka mang nagbabasa nito. :) Good luck for the upcoming year (2014). God Bless!

Sincerest,
Lovely (Me)