032514- 12:06am. Kanina pa ko pascroll scroll dito, facebook, youtube, google wala naman akong napapala. Wala lang may magawa lang. Pero dapat nagrereview talaga kong sobra dahil nga finals na pero wala eh sobrang wala ako sa mood. To think na sa wednesday to Saturday na yung exams. Siguro ganun talaga, kapag wala kang motivation at hindi mo gusto yung ginagawa mo wala kang matatapos. Although gusto ko naman talaga 'to matapos pero bakit ganto? Nakaka ewan. HAHAHAHAHA. Reklamo ko ng reklamo na andaming kailangang gawin pero ako naman tong hayyy...

Pero sabi nga nung kaibigan ko, "Alam kong kayang kaya mo yan, Ikaw pa!" Haha! Nakakapressure pong tunay. Basta I know naman na ginagawa ko yung best ko. Makiayon naman sana ang tadhana sakin. :D

Ate Yesha Sali

I have this friend/sister on Tumblr that I really idolize in terms of blogging and also in designing her blog. Her name is Yesha Sali, 21 years of age. She's from Zamboanga if I'm not mistaken. She chose nurse as her profession. I think she's the prettiest nurse that I have seen in my entire life. She's kind and approachable. I love how she communicate with her followers and friends. 

When I saw her online on Tumblr, at first I have hesitations if I would talk to her. Because I know that she is totally busy and I don't want to bother her. But I tried even if I'm shy.

 I told her that she's good in making her blog nice and neat. And I also asked her where did she learned all of it, because really want to be like her. But today, I just saw her response. She said that google is a big part of learning and also tutorials. "It's just a trial and error", she said. She also told me that she'll be going to teach how to do those designs if she have time. And that really made me happy. A big thanks to Ate Yesha Sali. I'm really looking forward to it. :)

Credits to Ate Yesha's header

(c) Ate Yesha's blog

You're really lovely. I want to meet you in person. God Bless to this pretty lady. And may you continue to inspire us using your blog posts. More power to you and your boyfriend. ^__^

Am I not good enough?

Why do I always feel like that I'm unwanted? Why do I always feel like that I'm alone? Why do I always feel like that I'm not good enough? Why do I always feel like that I'm just an option? Why do I always got rejected? Why am I feeling all of these when all I want is to be loved and be happy? WHY?

Am I not good enough? I always have this fear. The fear of not being good enough. I did my best to be good. I did my best not to disappoint all the people that counting on me but it's always not enough. I don't know where to stand. All I know is that, I'm just a just a disappointment to everybody. And the saddest thing is I always disappoint... MYSELF.

Maybe, I am not really good enough. Maybe I should strive more. Maybe my best is not really my best. It hurts. I am hurt. Why am I feeling these all of a sudden? I want someone to understand me. Someone I can talk to. Someone who will listen and never gets tired to all my rants. Someone who would tell me that, "No, you're not a failure Lovely. It's okay. Nobody is perfect. I'm always here for you, no matter what happens. I'll never leave you."

But nah! I need to accept the truth that the people I trust with all my heart, will leave me eventually. Just like others did. People come and go. So for now, I need to be strong... for myself. I don't want to cry anymore. I'm really tired. Tired of being alone. All I want is to be happy. Is that that hard?

Welcome Back Kuya Bry! :)

030814. My brother is currently working at my cousin's spa. Located in Balibago, Pampanga. He's been working there for almost two months. Every Wednesday is his day off, so he's travelling from Pampanga to Bulacan at night and got home 11pm or worst midnight. We all know that it is very hard for him to be on that situation because he's not used to it.

Hi Kuya! This blogpost is for you. Today, we noticed that you are now mature. We, your family were really proud of you. You're really grown up now. May you continue your good attitude at all. Nothing feels better than witnessing you doing and enjoying your job. I know that you're doing this because you want our mom, especially our dad to be proud of you. You just proved that it is not too late to change. And you changed for the BETTER. God bless you Kuya. We are always here for you no matter what. Eventhough we didn't usually say "I LOVE YOU" to you but I swear we mean it. We miss you a lot. Take care always.

With Kuya Bry :) ♥♡☆